That's it. This diary is closed. I'm not sure if I will delete it or not, but I'm not updating anymore. I hate this place and I hate thinking about her so damn much. And I hate her for making this always about her and pity me! And I hate her for getting in that stupid wreck and ruining things for everyone. I hate her because she's getting depressed and it's not fair to us when she snaps at us for nothing! I hate her because I have no one else to hate. I hate her because she has changed so much and she isn't the same person. I hate her because of all the equiptment she needs and the fact that she can't come home. I hate her for being so critical of me all the time, i have the be the perfect one in her eyes and I can't do it! I hate her because I miss her more than I've missed anything in my life.
Ah, that felt so good to actually write out, first time ever I said I hated anything about it. But I do, I hate it all. I don't want to think of it anymore. So this is it.
&! what you missed
I hate her - Thursday, May. 05, 2005
tired of it all - Saturday, Apr. 16, 2005
not fair - Sunday, Feb. 20, 2005
shopping - Monday, Dec. 13, 2004
Just A Minute - Saturday, Oct. 16, 2004